Show: Grey's Anatomy - 6x2
According to Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, when we are dying...
or have suffered a catastrophic loss, we all move through five distinct stages of grief.
We go into denial...
Push another amp of calcium.
Because the loss is so unthinkable, we can't imagine it's true.
Clear.
We become angry with everyone...
angry with survivors, angry with ourselves.
Then we bargain...
Damn it, O'Malley.
Come on.
Live.
Just live.
I.C.P's 30.
Push 70 of mannitol and start bagging.
He's hemorrhaging into his brain stem.
Is it too late for steroids?
We beg, we plead...
He's herniating!
We offer everything we have.
We offer up our souls...
in exchange...
for just one more day.
Stevens, can you hear me?
Look at me, Stevens.
Damn it.
When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair, until finally we have to accept that we have done everything we can.
We let go.
We let go and move into acceptance.
Anybody know if he's a donor?
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corrected by chamallow35 www.Addic7ed.com She wants it out.
Can't we take it out?
She's breathing over the vent.
All right.
Let's pull out the tube.
Dr.
Bailey.
It's okay.
Slow down.
Okay, come on.
Slow down.
His I.C.P.
went through the roof.
We did everything.
Everything.
Chief, his organs are viable for now.
But...
it won't be long until he's acidotic and hypothermic.
Is he a donor?
Um, I...
I don't know.
I called his mother.
She's on her way.
Let's close him up and get him to the I.C.U.
in case she wants see him.
Who...
who's George?
What?
John doe.
The guy who threw me out of the way of the bus.
The guy who saved my life.
Everyone's crying, and they keep saying, "John Doe is George."
Who's George?
You can't tell her.
Alex...
She coded in my arms.
Out of nowhere, she died.
Just...
I'll tell her.
I'll tell her when she gets stronger.
Alex.
You okay?
I had...
a dream.
He was in his uniform.
What?
George is gonna die in the army if we don't stop him.
Hand me my phone.
I need my phone.
Who said that was George?
Why do we think that's George?
Meredith said...
I don't know.
That's not George.
Look...
look at his feet.
Look how tall he is.
That's not George.
He wrote in my hand.
With a pen?
What did he do?
In your hand?
What does that...
No, he grabbed my hand and he squeezed it, and he wrote with his finger.
He wrote with his finger?
You know, in my hand.
He wrote "007. "
We, give...
I don't understand.
Okay, what did I write?
Joe?
N...
no!
No, I did not write "Joe."
Are...
are you serious?
Grey, do you mean this may not be O'Malley?
This is funny.
Did anyone try and call O'Malley?
Can we get him on the phone?
I'm telling you, he squeezed my hand.
Just sh...
shut it.
You don't get to talk anymore.
You don't get to talk ever again.
I could've sworn it was George.
I got voice mail.
He's not answering.
He has a freckle on his right hand.
It's shaped like Texas.
I used to tease him about it.
I'll check.
You people, answer your pages.
George O'Malley jumped in front of a bus today.
He knew what he was doing, and he did it anyway, and he did it to save a life.
So I'm not gonna allow you doctors to stand here.
There are lives on the line.
There are lives we can save.
So if George O'Malley can jump in front of a bus, we can answer our damn pages.
So let's go.
Damn it.
Damn it, O'Malley.
Now how long ago did the pain start?
I don't know.
A...
a few weeks?
Growing pains.
I took him to see our doctor.
He's a bad doctor.
He's...
he stands there texting while I'm talking to him.
He diagnosed Andy with growing pains.
But, you know, I grew up, and growing pains did not cause me to fall down on the soccer field.
Mom, you're being a little dramatic.
Your pain is dramatic to me, Andy.
Your mom's right.
It's a good thing that you came.
Okay, thanks, because it does hurt.
Everything hurts, all the time.
Okay.
Well, I'm gonna give you a quick exam, and you're gonna let me know if the pain gets worse, okay?
This doesn't feel real.
Does this feel real to you?
No.
I don't know.
Oh, crap.
I don't want...
I can't...
Don't walk away now.
Come on.
Don't walk...
mm.
Mrs.
O'Malley...
I'm so sorry.
You were his wife.
In God's eyes, you're still his wife.
You should decide about his organs.
You should decide.
But, um...
I can't do it, Callie.
I can't do it.
You understand?
Ronnie and...
and Jerry, they're off on some fishing expedition in Alaska, and they're gonna come home and I have to tell them that Georgie...
That's all I can do.
That's all I can...
I can't.
I...
I can't...
even see him like this.
I can't.
You need to do this for me.
Can you do this for me?
speed boat accident.
19-year-old female.
Lost vitals twice, but B.P.'s holding in the low 80s.
Both arms amputated at the scene, and the right leg's hanging on by a thread.
Did you recover either of the arms?
No, they're probably at the bottom of puget sound.
She was thrown from the boat, got pulled into the propeller.
She needs more access.
She's bleeding out.
Let's get a central line in her.
Let's go.
Go.
Draw trauma labs, uh, type and cross her and get as much o-neg as possible.
Wait!
I found them.
I found them.
Her arms!
they were on the boat with her.
I found them in the water.
You have to take them.
They were just floating in the water.
You...
you can sew them back on, right?
We'll do everything we can.
Oh, my God, Jojo.
That was so gross.
Jasmine, you just saved her life.
You think?
I'm so sorry.
I just heard.
I don't know what to say.
Go home.
You need to go home.
You need to cry and scream and...
when my brother died, I...
I ate doughnuts.
I ate a lot of doughnuts, and that helped some but...
God, I...
I don't know what to say.
His mom wants me to decide about his organs.
He lost his wallet in the accident.
They don't know if he's a donor, and now his mom wants me to decide, and can't.
I can't tell her no, but I can't decide.
I mean, we were only married for a few months.
Okay, but...
during those months, you were the most important person in George's life.
No.
No, I wasn't.
I...
I'm sorry.
Okay, so let's take a look at the x-rays.
Do I need to take my son to another hospital?
What?
That doctor's hands are shaking as he tries to stick my son with a needle, and those nurses are crying.
You and your friend...
what the hell is going on here?
There was an accident, and one of our people died.
Andy is my person.
He's my only person.
And...
something is wrong with him.
So what I'm asking you is, do I need to take him somewhere else?
No.
No.
I'll make Andy my person, okay?
I'll make Andy my person, too.
I didn't tell her, okay?
Karev...
Look, we just ignored her D.N.R.
Her kidneys quit and she coded.
She was freaking intubated.
She's not strong enough.
What's her B.U.N.?
15.
And her creatinine?
1.5.
She's strong enough.
She's strong enough, and you have to tell her.
Why?
It can wait.
No, it can't.
It can't wait because George's organs are not gonna be viable for long.
If they want to use 'em, they have to do it soon, and I have to decide if they get to use 'em, and I need Izzie to help me, because she's the one who should decide.
She's who should decide.
So that's one reason and...
and the other reason is, Karev, if you let them unplug George without giving her a chance to say goodbye...
I mean it, she will never forgive you.
You have to tell her.
her pressure keeps dropping.
Let's throw in an I.O.
and put the blood in the rapid infuser.
These are pretty clean amputations.
We can reattach these arms.
Yay!
I found 'em, you know?
I'm looking at omentum.
Let's get her to an O.R.
now.
Does your friend have any allergies, medical conditions?
Is she on any medication?
She's not our friend.
Jasmine!
We barely know her.
We met her on the plane from Sydney.
We're backpacking, seeing the states.
So we hardly know her.
We're just traveling mates.
She's really nice, though.
All right, let's move.
A name.
Uh, can you give me that?
Clara.
Clara...
Ferguson, I think.
Clara Ferguson.
Clara, hang in there.
Stay with me.
She lives with her mum in London.
I have her backpack in my car.
Okay, get it.
Should we stay?
Yes, uh, in the waiting room.
I'll update you when I can.
Dr.
Shepherd.
Mr.
Jennings.
It's good to see you.
It's Derek, right?
May I call you Derek?
Of course.
I understand you lost a resident.
That's sad.
I'm sorry.
But the hospital board is meeting soon, and, Derek, I need to know if you'd like to be the next chief of surgery at Seattle Grace.
George.
It's me.
You know, I pretty much died not too long ago.
So I need you to call me back.
Please.
I know.
I played the cancer card.
I'm gross.
Whatever.
I need to tell you something, and I need you to not panic.
I need you to keep breathing.
I need you to stay alive, 'cause...
I swear to God, I need you to stay alive.
All right?
Okay.
O'Malley...
he got in an accident.
He's brain dead.
I'm sorry.
What?
What about his heart?
Okay.
His eyes?
I know.
Don't want to imagine him without his eyes.
George would give everything.
His skin, his eyes...
he would give everything.
I have a kid in there...
15 years old, previously healthy...
has back pain bad enough to cause vomiting.
Can you talk it through with me?
Because I can't figure out what it is, and I think best out loud.
Did you not hear about George O'Malley?
I did.
It's incredibly sad.
I cannot talk to you right now.
I cannot work right now.
Dr.
Bailey...
I hear that.
And I don't mean to be insensitive.
But this kid?
This kid's still alive.
And I don't know what's wrong with him.
Not a clue.
So...
I need you to work.
I need you to talk through this living patient with me, Bailey.
Please.
How's his neuro exam?
Normal.
Could it be...
a compression fracture?
Plain films and C.T.
are negative.
Any congenital problems?
None reported.
Need to go home?
No.
Did you eat?
No.
Can you eat?
No.
Did you cry?
No.
Maybe if you cried, you'd feel better.
I...
you just...
just, uh, you being here is...
and don't say anything, just be here, that...
that...
that helps.
How are you?
Meredith.
We need you.
Okay.
Excuse me.
Amanda.
You have to go.
We need the room.
I'm so sorry.
I know.
I'm sorry.
I'm...
I'm so sorry.
You, too, huh?
Growing pains.
You're saying this is growing p...
No, no, no.
Not just growing pains.
He has a mild case of scoliosis, which, combined with a growth spurt, could account for the pain and the clumsiness on the soccer field.
So we'll see if it settles in a couple of weeks, and if not, then you'll come back in for more tests.
Why don't you just run them now?
Because the next set of tests involve things like sticking large needles into Andy's spine.
All right, then.
Heading home.
You're sure about this?
No.
But I'm gonna write a prescription for muscle relaxants, and you know that I'm here if you need me, which I really hope that you won't.
Did Torres decide about O'Malley?
About his organs?
I don't know.
I'm gonna see where they are.
Uh, chief.
Look, I...
I know this is the worst possible moment, but...
we need to talk.
The board is planning a coup.
They're saying that you dropped the ball, that our ranking isn't coming up.
They want to oust you.
They're asking me to support it.
They're asking me to step up, to take the job.
Take my job?
I told them I'd think about it.
I bought you some time.
But you need a plan.
Torres has made a decision.
Were you here to give an update on the boating victim?
Uh, yeah.
Where are...
They left.
Her friends left.
They said that they had a plane to catch and something about a concert in Vegas that they didn't want to miss.
They left her pack for you.
She's got dozens of surgeries ahead of her, if she survives this one.
She needs a support system.
Okay, until we find her family, you're it.
Keep that.
Uh, w...
I'm...
I'm sorry.
You want me...
you...
you're ordering me to what, be her friend?
She's gonna wake up in a lot of pain missing one of her legs and unable to use either of her arms, so yes, I am ordering you to be her friend, 'cause I'm sure as hell not gonna do it.
I'm heading back to surgery.
Patient is George O'Malley, 29.
Procedure is organ recovery for donation.
I will call on the receiving surgeons.
Kidneys.
St.
Luke's children'.
Boise.
Who is it for?
Sorry?
Who are his kidneys for?
I gave all that to the nurse.
I would like you to tell me.
Molly Kemper...
8 years old, hypoplastic kidneys.
Thank you.
Lungs?
Lungs and heart are going to Portland medical center.
Terry class, age 22.
Cystic fibrosis.
Liver?
You are evil.
You are the devil.
I am.
I admit it.
Cristina, you know the rules.
Oh, the rules are stupid.
So you're saying my shrink's stupid?
Hmm?
I'm saying she's a prude.
She's prudey and...
and misguided.
She wants us to get to know each other.
She wants me to keep getting to know myself.
She does not want me...
burying myself in you.
And if we start to have sex...
I'll bury myself in you.
Oh, now who's evil?
It's not gonna be too much longer.
You want me to quit therapy?
Hmm?
No!
Crap.
All right.
We have to go to O'Malley's funeral anyway.
No, I hate funerals.
Let's skip it.
Uh, we can, uh, push up Ceviche's debridemen that's good excuse.
Ceviche?
Chopped up fish.
Propeller accident.
Ceviche.
It's funny.
Right.
It's sick.
That's what makes it funny.
We are going to the funeral.
Come on. "
And then all these unicycle boys with wings carried us on a platform like we were Cleopatra or something.
Hilarious. "
I can't believe they went to burning man.
Hags.
They'd never even heard of burning man.
I hate them.
I hate them.
Clara...
forget them.
Okay?
They're morons.
They're just...
think about today.
Okay, the fact that today, you're gonna get what we believe is your final debridement, and then after that, we're gonna get the physical therapist in here to get your arm moving.
So I am gonna save this piece for you to do.
Thanks.
Now I'm gonna ask you one more time.
No.
Don't you want to call your mom...
No.
Before your next surgery?
No.
Not yet.
But we could write her another e-mail.
Will it make you late for your funeral?
No, no. "
Hi, mom.
I hope you're well.
Aside from the heat and the smell, burning man was amazing."
There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens...
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot the plant, a time to kill and a time to heal...
a time to tear down and a time to build...
Are you okay?
A time to weep...
You want the wheelchair?
And a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to cast away stones and a time to gather stones together, a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing.
I'm sorry.
You're laughing?
She'laughing.
George...
George is dead.
He's dead.
They're about to put him in the ground, and the priest is doing classic rock lyrics.
And that girl, that redhead is crying harder than his mother, and she never even met him.
It's just...
You are far more twisted than I ever realized.
And you got married on a post-it.
I got married on a post-it.
I did.
I did.
You know, you guys got married for real?
I know!
And I got cancer.
What?
Dude, O...
O'Malley got hit by a bus.
Oh, my God.
She never stops crying.
Not now.
Please not now.
It's been a week.
You've been avoiding me.
Not now.
I am buying you time, you know?
I am buying you time.
You have no idea what I've given.
You have no idea what I have sacrificed.
For every miscalculation you think you see, there have been a hundred things that I have gotten right, and no one knows.
Look, I'm on your side, okay?
I'm...
I'm not the board.
I'm not Jennings.
Well, then back off, then.
Just back off and...
you give me time to think.
Let me have a minute to...
O'Malley was my intern.
And I am trying to just take a minute.
So, Derek, please...
back off.
You want a ride home?
I'm just gonna clean out his locker, give his stuff to his mom, but...
I was a bad friend to George.
I was about as good a friend to him as Clara's friends, who keep sending postcards from the trip that she'll never get to take.
I just...
I...
I abandoned him completely.
I...
I...
I just...
moved out and...
and stopped talking to him and...
why?
Because...
because he didn't think it was as hot as I thought he was or be...
because he...
he didn't...
he didn't love me back?
This...
may be bad timing, but I gotta ask.
What did that guy have?
I mean, he wasn't much to look at.
But you and Stevens and Torres?
Tell the truth.
Was he...
you know...
hung?
That's...
I know.
I said bad timing.
I...
but seriously, he was kind of a dorky little dude.
Stop.
Stop talking.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
He...
he died.
I...
George died.
Yeah.
Okay, any pain here?
Now take a deep breath.
Any dizziness when you stood up?
Take a deep breath.
No.
Okay.
You are going home.
You are gonna come back in 12 days for another round of I.
L.-2, and then you have your pet-scan two weeks after that.
But there's no need for you to keep living in this bed.
You should take it easy.
You're still a cancer patient, but you're no longer a surgical patient.
Thank you, Dr.
Bailey.
I don't know how to...
thank you.
Uh, don't forget to sign the discharge papers before you leave.
Andy?
He's got serious pain in his inguinal area and down his legs and in his lower back.
He's got a temp of 101, and his mom says he's been throwing up all night.
Please don't tell me this is growing pains, Dr.
Robbins.
I can't do it.
It's okay.
I can't move it at all.
It's only been three days since your last surgery.
The swelling will come down.
Take a deep breath.
You're doing great.
Right.
Great.
So...
where did we leave off, at the Grand Canyon?
Yeah.
Big, gorgeous hole in the ground.
Okay, uh, miss you, mum.
uh, wish you could see it.
Clara, sorry.
Um...
you are doing great, but you got a long road here.
And believe me, your mom, she's gonna want to know.
And she's gonna want to help.
She made me from scratch.
That's what she always says.
Like...
when I wanted to go skydiving, you know? "
Don't jump out of a plane, Clara.
I made that body from scratch."
Or when I sprained my ankle... "
Be more careful, darling.
I made that ankle from scratch."
"Miss you, mum.
I'm doing great.
Love you.
Clara."
Come in.
Oh, Dr.
Torres.
Chief, I was just, um...
I was just wondering.
I, um, haven't heard anything about my application for attending, so...
Well, Dr.
Torres, Dr.
Chang's 401k took a hit, and he's putting off retirement for another year or two.
So...
so wait.
You're not giving me the job?
There is no job, not this year.
I'm sorry.
I assumed you'd heard.
Okay, um, Dr.
Chang is basically a figurehead.
You're clear on that, right?
When people want the best, they page me.
I have basically been running Dr.
Chang's department all year.
Dr.
Chang has an impeccable record.
He is a dinosaur!
And so am I!
You're...
this is c...
you're gonna regret this.
Dr.
Torres...
No, no, no.
I am just...
no.
I am excellent.
I am excellent, and any other hospital would be thrilled to have me.
I'm flattered for the offer, Larry, and I'm seriously considering it but it's...
it's complicated, and I need a little more time.
I can't give you more time, Derek.
I can give you more money, better benefits and a whole lot of press...
that's what I can give you.
But I can't give you much more time.
Yes, I am.
I'm a superstar...
a superstar with a scalpel.
Torres...
No!
Don't say my name.
Do not.
I am too big a star for you to say my name.
I build arms out of nothing, and legs, like God.
And when I win the Harper Avery and every other prize there is, you will rue this day, Chief Webber.
That's right.
I said "rue."
Tight ship you're running here, Webber.
Al tight ship.
Amanda.
What are you doing here?
Uh, I...
can't sleep.
I can't...
fall asleep 'cause I see his face all the time.
I see him at the bus stop...
you know, sweet, smiling, and then...
and then I see the way that he ended up, so that even his best friends can't recognize him, and I can't sleep.
Can you...
can you sleep?
I, um...
am gonna write you a prescription for an anti-anxiety medication.
And I want you to take it, because this sleep deprivation thing can be quite harmful.
Dr.
Robbins.
Chief.
Did you order an emergent 3-d M.R.I.
for this patient?
Okay, you're mad.
I see that.
But with the patient's mother's insurance, it could take weeks to get an M.R.I.
and a specialty pain referral...
So you expect the hospital to pay for this with whose money?
Oh, well, sir, I only thought that...
I don't want to hear it, Fr.
Robbins.
Now discharge your patient, refer him back to his physician, and do it now.
Dr.
Karev, change of plans.
Open up!
Open the door, Torres.
Open the door or I'll keep knocking and potentially damage my multimillion-dollar hands.
My ex-husband died.
He died.
He actually got hit by a bus.
George got hit by a bus.
And now...
now I have to get a new job, and...
and I'm never gonna see my friends anymore.
And Arizona keeps bringing me doughnuts.
We'll set up the scaffolding here.
This place for sale?
It's nice.
What?
Oh, nothing, nothing.
Oh, my God!
Derek!
Dude, get a room.
On the stairs?
Doesn't that hurt?
Leave us alone.
We're newlyweds!
A post-it wedding does not make you newlyweds.
You know what?
You're newlyweds, too.
You need your own space.
Hey, dude, what are these?
The keys to my trailer...
your new home.
Enjoy.
Dr.
Hunt?
Yes.
I'm Louise O'Malley.
George's mother.
Of course, of course.
I'm sorry.
I...
I didn't...
I'm sorry.
It's all right.
I'm...
I...
well, I hope you don't, uh, mh, mind me coming here to see you.
I know you surgeons are...
are very busy people.
My Georgie was always saying...
It's no problem.
It's fine.
I'm...
having trouble.
I'm having trouble...
I...
and I...
I...
I think it's because I...
I'm having trouble understanding.
Uh, there's a piece of the puzzle missing.
I...
I do better when I understand things, how things happen.
And George...
my George...
the boy I knew, the boy I raised, my boy would never have joined the army.
So I'm trying to understand.
I'm trying to understand that piece of it.
I...
I'm trying to understand why Georgie wasn't at work that day, why he was on his way to my house to tell me he'd joined the army in wartime.
I don't understand.
And Dr.
Webber said I should talk to you.
Mrs.
O'Malley, I didn't know him like you knew him.
I didn't know him long, but he had tremendous potential as a trauma surgeon.
He...
he was very fast on his feet, and he could think and act simultaneously under intense pressure.
He had tremendous potential.
And...
you know, he was impatient.
He wanted to become better faster.
He wanted to save more lives.
He was good.
And he was thoughtful and generous.
And I think in the end, I think...
I think he was heroic and noble.
And I liked him very much.
And I think he gave you good reason to be very, very proud.
I'm, uh, headed out.
I just wanted to say goodnight.
Night.
Clara, you just moved...
you moved your fingers.
Like...
like you waved.
You waved goodbye.
This is huge.
That's huge?
That I waved?
That I waved a finger?
That's...
that's my life from now on?
That's the best I have to hope for?
Clara...
do you see that woman out there talking to Dr.
Hunt?
We...
we buried her son this week.
He had an accident, like you.
He...
he wasn't even as bad off as you were, and he didn't make it.
Clara, I know that it doesn't feel like it, but it is a miracle that you lived.
It is a miracle.
So you should call your mom.
She would want to know the truth.
You stupid little bitch.
You really don't get i do you?
You shoulda let me die.
You had no business.
I've got one working hand.
I may never walk again.
Do you think you're god?
You had no business.
Your friend is better off.
His mum is better off.
Do you think this is a miracle?
Who wants to live like this?
Just let me die.
Just let me die!
Please just let me die.
Clara, Clara, you need to stop.
Clara, you need...
Just let me die!
Get off.
Clara...
I need some help in here!
Let me die.
Let me die.
Stop.
Clara, stop.
You have to stop moving.
In medical school, we have a hundred classes that teach us how to fight off death...
and not one lesson in how to go on living.
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Sharp sorrow.
Painful regret.
As surgeons, as scientists, we're taught to learn from and rely on books, on definitions, on definitives.
But in life...
strict definitions rarely apply.
In life...
grief can look like a lot of things that bear little resemblance to sharp sorrow. "
You're not missing much.
New York smells like pee."
God, I hate them.
More pain?
Your C.T.
results should be back soon.
I'm fine.
You should go home tonight.
You can call off the 24-hour suicide watch, you know?
Honestly, I'm better now.
I am.
Do you know what I think?
I think you're using me to avoid moving in with your boyfriend.
am not.
I'll make you a deal...
you move in with your boyfriend, and I'll let you call my mum.
Oh, mean.
Chicken.
Okay, uh, Clara, the C.T.
shows you have an infection in your small bowel and your colon is inflamed.
It's most likely something you picked up in the water.
But it seems to have formed an abscess, which means you need surgery right away.
No.
Uh, if we don't go...
No.
No more surgery.
I'm not being cut open again.
Okay, uh...
No.
You just take a minute.
Take a few minutes.
And I'll come back, and we'll discuss it.
um, start her on pre-op antibiotics and book an O.R.
What are the options?
Can you give me drugs?
Can you...
No, you need surgery, but it's a simple procedure.
And if it all goes as planned, you sh...
Well, my boat ride didn't exactly go as planned.
So tell me, worst case.
Well, uh, worst case is...
that we'd have to take out a part of your colon and give you a colostomy bag...
Colostomy bag?
A pooh bag outside your body?
My granddad had one of those.
It was...
No, but it...
it's a small, small possibility.
No.
No pooh bag.
No surgery.
No.
The infection will kill you, Clara...
No.
No more surgery.
We tried pain meds and treated him for pyelonephritis.
But it looks like it could be something more serious, so we did a C.M.G.
You did a C.M.G.
for a U.T.I.?
Why would you even look for something...
Because we were out of ideas.
The C.M.G.
was negative.
So we went back to a possible neurological cause.
So if we could get a better look, if you could give us permission to get a 3-d M.R.I.
, We could maybe, just possibly...
Chief, this kid's been in the E.R.
four times in the last three weeks because the pain meds aren't working.
Why can't we just...
sir?
$5, 000, Karev.
That's how much either you or Dr.
Robbins would have to put up to cover that scan.
Otherwise, you could come with me to my board meeting this afternoon and explain why you're running this hospital like it's a charity.
Dude, are you crying?
I have authority issues.
Walk away, Karev.
Where do you get off killing my patients, Yang?
Killing your...
When you take it upon yourself to talk that girl out of a lifesaving surgery, you're killing her.
I didn't talk her...
she had questions about the surgery.
You left the room.
No, I left the room to give a very fragile, very distraught patient time and space to accept what's being asked of her.
Then and only then would I have discussed the possible risks with, I'm certain, more tact and sensitivity than you have ever displayed in all the time that I've known you.
She asked...
No.
I don't care what she asked you.
And if she asks you anything else, your only answer will be, "let me ask my attending.
These are good.
Do they sell these in the cafeteria?
No.
No, those are the cancer pops.
Why do cancer people get all the fun?
How do you feel, Iz?
I'm not looking forward to the hurling that's about to happen, but I feel okay.
I feel good.
Bailey's on some sort of rampage.
I think it's post-O'Malley stress disorder.
She's not dealing with her grief.
You sound like Owen's shrink.
Owen's shrink...
is withholding sex, so she is grumpy and inappropriate.
Is Derek doing that, too, withholding sex?
Why would Derek withhold sex?
Alex is withholding...
everything.
It's like he's afraid, but I don't know what he's afraid of.
He's afraid of the cancer sex.
Cristina!
He doesn't want to end up with a cancer pop.
Cristina!
Just shut the hell up.
I'm not contagious, Cristina.
I know that.
I would totally have sex with you.
Really?
Nothing?
You don't even want a drawer?
No.
How about a toothbrush, change of panties?
No.
Damn.
I like your panties.
I am trying to focus.
I'm...
I'm becoming a resident today.
I need to focus.
I'm right across the street from the hospital.
If you crash here sometimes, you'll get a jump on a lot of surgeries.
Okay, okay.
Which one?
It's my first day at Mercy West, and I want to look nice.
You know, serious, talented, hard-core, not someone you push around.
Nice but hot...
like me.
That one.
Really?
I thought this one.
Too hot.
Better for a date.
That one.
Okay.
Here.
Can you...
thanks.
Okay.
Okay.
Less hot?
Less hot.
Okay.
Okay, okay.
Good.
Thanks.
Wish me luck.
Or not luck, 'cause I'm all talented and hard-core.
You're an attending, Torres.
Go kick some ass.
so, um...
Did you forget to mention that your hot, hard -core ex-sex-friend lives right across the hall?
Did I?
Yeah, you did.
And it is only under my tenure as chief that Seattle Grace has grown into one of the most renowned, lauded and sought-after surgical centers in the country.
Replacing me...
no.
Disrupting that process would be an epic mistake.
It is for that reason that I stand before you today and say with the utmost confidence that there is no one who understands and cares more about Seattle Grace than...
than me.
Look, this is ridiculous.
I'm fine.
It's a sprained ankle, and...
and I have a meeting I have to get to.
Look, I said I'm fine.
Chief?
Torres.
Thank God.
You were in a car accident?
Oh, it was minor.
I ran a red light.
I was distracted.
I am fine.
Can we make this quick?
I have a meeting with the board.
Okay.
Let's see.
Ooh, I don't know, sir.
This lac looks pretty deep.
You'll definitely need stitches.
And the ankle...
oh, yikes.
Yeah.
You could need surgery.
It's...
it's a sprain, Torres.
You two know each other?
Dr.
Webber and I go way back, huh we worked together for, what was it, five, six years?
You know, I hate to say it, but you're gonna have to have that lac repaired.
And this being a teaching hospital, not to mention Dr.
Mckee's first day, I have to let him work you up.
So you know how to do sutures, right, Dr.
Mckee?
Damn straight.
Great.
Good seeing you, chief.
Look, doc...
d...
She's, uh, she's just kidding about this being my first day.
It's, uh, it's my eighth.
What kind of sutures are you using?
Uh, 3-0 nylon?
No, no, no.
Use dermabond.
It takes less time and it heals quicker.
Yeah, I know, but, like, budget cuts, you know?
You like working in this place, doctor, um, McKee?
I mean, you think it's a strong program?
Yeah, it rocks.
Like, day eight, and I'm doing unsupervised procedures?
Not too shabby.
Not too shabby.
Uh, he trained at Northwestern and then at Harvard.
Uh, he grew up like five miles away from here.
Um, not rich, not poor.
Comfortable and well-loved by his parents, but, um, uh, itching to do something more with his life, which is when he enlisted, at the age of...
Cristina, this is not a book report.
I'm trying to explain to Dr.
Wyatt that I know things about you.
Cristina...
Wait, wait, wait.
He knows things about me, too, if that's what you're gonna say, 'cause we talk.
I mean, we talk all the time.
Honey? "
Honey"?
Cristina, let me be clear.
It's not just that I want the two of you to get to know each other, it's that I want Owen to feel comfortable with you.
Oh, he is comfortable with me.
It's fine.
You can talk to her.
It's fine.
Okay.
Cristina, um, he talks to you, he's comfortable with you.
Does he talk to you about his trauma?
Does Owen talk to you about the war?
Does he talk to you about the incident between you two...
the choking?
Owen's post-traumatic stress is fed...
by his avoidance of talking about anything in the war.
In order to improve, to heal, he's going to have to start talking about it, to you and to me.
And my concern is, if you get lost in the lust of it all, he won't have to make a start.
He won't have any reason to.
He'll feel that he has everything he needs until he doesn't.
So...
I'm asking you to wait.
Finished.
Read it back to me. "
Hi, mom.
Please prepare yourself, because this is gonna be difficult to read.
I've been in an accident."
or have suffered a catastrophic loss, we all move through five distinct stages of grief.
We go into denial...
Push another amp of calcium.
Because the loss is so unthinkable, we can't imagine it's true.
Clear.
We become angry with everyone...
angry with survivors, angry with ourselves.
Then we bargain...
Damn it, O'Malley.
Come on.
Live.
Just live.
I.C.P's 30.
Push 70 of mannitol and start bagging.
He's hemorrhaging into his brain stem.
Is it too late for steroids?
We beg, we plead...
He's herniating!
We offer everything we have.
We offer up our souls...
in exchange...
for just one more day.
Stevens, can you hear me?
Look at me, Stevens.
Damn it.
When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair, until finally we have to accept that we have done everything we can.
We let go.
We let go and move into acceptance.
Anybody know if he's a donor?
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Can't we take it out?
She's breathing over the vent.
All right.
Let's pull out the tube.
Dr.
Bailey.
It's okay.
Slow down.
Okay, come on.
Slow down.
His I.C.P.
went through the roof.
We did everything.
Everything.
Chief, his organs are viable for now.
But...
it won't be long until he's acidotic and hypothermic.
Is he a donor?
Um, I...
I don't know.
I called his mother.
She's on her way.
Let's close him up and get him to the I.C.U.
in case she wants see him.
Who...
who's George?
What?
John doe.
The guy who threw me out of the way of the bus.
The guy who saved my life.
Everyone's crying, and they keep saying, "John Doe is George."
Who's George?
You can't tell her.
Alex...
She coded in my arms.
Out of nowhere, she died.
Just...
I'll tell her.
I'll tell her when she gets stronger.
Alex.
You okay?
I had...
a dream.
He was in his uniform.
What?
George is gonna die in the army if we don't stop him.
Hand me my phone.
I need my phone.
Who said that was George?
Why do we think that's George?
Meredith said...
I don't know.
That's not George.
Look...
look at his feet.
Look how tall he is.
That's not George.
He wrote in my hand.
With a pen?
What did he do?
In your hand?
What does that...
No, he grabbed my hand and he squeezed it, and he wrote with his finger.
He wrote with his finger?
You know, in my hand.
He wrote "007. "
We, give...
I don't understand.
Okay, what did I write?
Joe?
N...
no!
No, I did not write "Joe."
Are...
are you serious?
Grey, do you mean this may not be O'Malley?
This is funny.
Did anyone try and call O'Malley?
Can we get him on the phone?
I'm telling you, he squeezed my hand.
Just sh...
shut it.
You don't get to talk anymore.
You don't get to talk ever again.
I could've sworn it was George.
I got voice mail.
He's not answering.
He has a freckle on his right hand.
It's shaped like Texas.
I used to tease him about it.
I'll check.
You people, answer your pages.
George O'Malley jumped in front of a bus today.
He knew what he was doing, and he did it anyway, and he did it to save a life.
So I'm not gonna allow you doctors to stand here.
There are lives on the line.
There are lives we can save.
So if George O'Malley can jump in front of a bus, we can answer our damn pages.
So let's go.
Damn it.
Damn it, O'Malley.
Now how long ago did the pain start?
I don't know.
A...
a few weeks?
Growing pains.
I took him to see our doctor.
He's a bad doctor.
He's...
he stands there texting while I'm talking to him.
He diagnosed Andy with growing pains.
But, you know, I grew up, and growing pains did not cause me to fall down on the soccer field.
Mom, you're being a little dramatic.
Your pain is dramatic to me, Andy.
Your mom's right.
It's a good thing that you came.
Okay, thanks, because it does hurt.
Everything hurts, all the time.
Okay.
Well, I'm gonna give you a quick exam, and you're gonna let me know if the pain gets worse, okay?
This doesn't feel real.
Does this feel real to you?
No.
I don't know.
Oh, crap.
I don't want...
I can't...
Don't walk away now.
Come on.
Don't walk...
mm.
Mrs.
O'Malley...
I'm so sorry.
You were his wife.
In God's eyes, you're still his wife.
You should decide about his organs.
You should decide.
But, um...
I can't do it, Callie.
I can't do it.
You understand?
Ronnie and...
and Jerry, they're off on some fishing expedition in Alaska, and they're gonna come home and I have to tell them that Georgie...
That's all I can do.
That's all I can...
I can't.
I...
I can't...
even see him like this.
I can't.
You need to do this for me.
Can you do this for me?
speed boat accident.
19-year-old female.
Lost vitals twice, but B.P.'s holding in the low 80s.
Both arms amputated at the scene, and the right leg's hanging on by a thread.
Did you recover either of the arms?
No, they're probably at the bottom of puget sound.
She was thrown from the boat, got pulled into the propeller.
She needs more access.
She's bleeding out.
Let's get a central line in her.
Let's go.
Go.
Draw trauma labs, uh, type and cross her and get as much o-neg as possible.
Wait!
I found them.
I found them.
Her arms!
they were on the boat with her.
I found them in the water.
You have to take them.
They were just floating in the water.
You...
you can sew them back on, right?
We'll do everything we can.
Oh, my God, Jojo.
That was so gross.
Jasmine, you just saved her life.
You think?
I'm so sorry.
I just heard.
I don't know what to say.
Go home.
You need to go home.
You need to cry and scream and...
when my brother died, I...
I ate doughnuts.
I ate a lot of doughnuts, and that helped some but...
God, I...
I don't know what to say.
His mom wants me to decide about his organs.
He lost his wallet in the accident.
They don't know if he's a donor, and now his mom wants me to decide, and can't.
I can't tell her no, but I can't decide.
I mean, we were only married for a few months.
Okay, but...
during those months, you were the most important person in George's life.
No.
No, I wasn't.
I...
I'm sorry.
Okay, so let's take a look at the x-rays.
Do I need to take my son to another hospital?
What?
That doctor's hands are shaking as he tries to stick my son with a needle, and those nurses are crying.
You and your friend...
what the hell is going on here?
There was an accident, and one of our people died.
Andy is my person.
He's my only person.
And...
something is wrong with him.
So what I'm asking you is, do I need to take him somewhere else?
No.
No.
I'll make Andy my person, okay?
I'll make Andy my person, too.
I didn't tell her, okay?
Karev...
Look, we just ignored her D.N.R.
Her kidneys quit and she coded.
She was freaking intubated.
She's not strong enough.
What's her B.U.N.?
15.
And her creatinine?
1.5.
She's strong enough.
She's strong enough, and you have to tell her.
Why?
It can wait.
No, it can't.
It can't wait because George's organs are not gonna be viable for long.
If they want to use 'em, they have to do it soon, and I have to decide if they get to use 'em, and I need Izzie to help me, because she's the one who should decide.
She's who should decide.
So that's one reason and...
and the other reason is, Karev, if you let them unplug George without giving her a chance to say goodbye...
I mean it, she will never forgive you.
You have to tell her.
her pressure keeps dropping.
Let's throw in an I.O.
and put the blood in the rapid infuser.
These are pretty clean amputations.
We can reattach these arms.
Yay!
I found 'em, you know?
I'm looking at omentum.
Let's get her to an O.R.
now.
Does your friend have any allergies, medical conditions?
Is she on any medication?
She's not our friend.
Jasmine!
We barely know her.
We met her on the plane from Sydney.
We're backpacking, seeing the states.
So we hardly know her.
We're just traveling mates.
She's really nice, though.
All right, let's move.
A name.
Uh, can you give me that?
Clara.
Clara...
Ferguson, I think.
Clara Ferguson.
Clara, hang in there.
Stay with me.
She lives with her mum in London.
I have her backpack in my car.
Okay, get it.
Should we stay?
Yes, uh, in the waiting room.
I'll update you when I can.
Dr.
Shepherd.
Mr.
Jennings.
It's good to see you.
It's Derek, right?
May I call you Derek?
Of course.
I understand you lost a resident.
That's sad.
I'm sorry.
But the hospital board is meeting soon, and, Derek, I need to know if you'd like to be the next chief of surgery at Seattle Grace.
George.
It's me.
You know, I pretty much died not too long ago.
So I need you to call me back.
Please.
I know.
I played the cancer card.
I'm gross.
Whatever.
I need to tell you something, and I need you to not panic.
I need you to keep breathing.
I need you to stay alive, 'cause...
I swear to God, I need you to stay alive.
All right?
Okay.
O'Malley...
he got in an accident.
He's brain dead.
I'm sorry.
What?
What about his heart?
Okay.
His eyes?
I know.
Don't want to imagine him without his eyes.
George would give everything.
His skin, his eyes...
he would give everything.
I have a kid in there...
15 years old, previously healthy...
has back pain bad enough to cause vomiting.
Can you talk it through with me?
Because I can't figure out what it is, and I think best out loud.
Did you not hear about George O'Malley?
I did.
It's incredibly sad.
I cannot talk to you right now.
I cannot work right now.
Dr.
Bailey...
I hear that.
And I don't mean to be insensitive.
But this kid?
This kid's still alive.
And I don't know what's wrong with him.
Not a clue.
So...
I need you to work.
I need you to talk through this living patient with me, Bailey.
Please.
How's his neuro exam?
Normal.
Could it be...
a compression fracture?
Plain films and C.T.
are negative.
Any congenital problems?
None reported.
Need to go home?
No.
Did you eat?
No.
Can you eat?
No.
Did you cry?
No.
Maybe if you cried, you'd feel better.
I...
you just...
just, uh, you being here is...
and don't say anything, just be here, that...
that...
that helps.
How are you?
Meredith.
We need you.
Okay.
Excuse me.
Amanda.
You have to go.
We need the room.
I'm so sorry.
I know.
I'm sorry.
I'm...
I'm so sorry.
You, too, huh?
Growing pains.
You're saying this is growing p...
No, no, no.
Not just growing pains.
He has a mild case of scoliosis, which, combined with a growth spurt, could account for the pain and the clumsiness on the soccer field.
So we'll see if it settles in a couple of weeks, and if not, then you'll come back in for more tests.
Why don't you just run them now?
Because the next set of tests involve things like sticking large needles into Andy's spine.
All right, then.
Heading home.
You're sure about this?
No.
But I'm gonna write a prescription for muscle relaxants, and you know that I'm here if you need me, which I really hope that you won't.
Did Torres decide about O'Malley?
About his organs?
I don't know.
I'm gonna see where they are.
Uh, chief.
Look, I...
I know this is the worst possible moment, but...
we need to talk.
The board is planning a coup.
They're saying that you dropped the ball, that our ranking isn't coming up.
They want to oust you.
They're asking me to support it.
They're asking me to step up, to take the job.
Take my job?
I told them I'd think about it.
I bought you some time.
But you need a plan.
Torres has made a decision.
Were you here to give an update on the boating victim?
Uh, yeah.
Where are...
They left.
Her friends left.
They said that they had a plane to catch and something about a concert in Vegas that they didn't want to miss.
They left her pack for you.
She's got dozens of surgeries ahead of her, if she survives this one.
She needs a support system.
Okay, until we find her family, you're it.
Keep that.
Uh, w...
I'm...
I'm sorry.
You want me...
you...
you're ordering me to what, be her friend?
She's gonna wake up in a lot of pain missing one of her legs and unable to use either of her arms, so yes, I am ordering you to be her friend, 'cause I'm sure as hell not gonna do it.
I'm heading back to surgery.
Patient is George O'Malley, 29.
Procedure is organ recovery for donation.
I will call on the receiving surgeons.
Kidneys.
St.
Luke's children'.
Boise.
Who is it for?
Sorry?
Who are his kidneys for?
I gave all that to the nurse.
I would like you to tell me.
Molly Kemper...
8 years old, hypoplastic kidneys.
Thank you.
Lungs?
Lungs and heart are going to Portland medical center.
Terry class, age 22.
Cystic fibrosis.
Liver?
You are evil.
You are the devil.
I am.
I admit it.
Cristina, you know the rules.
Oh, the rules are stupid.
So you're saying my shrink's stupid?
Hmm?
I'm saying she's a prude.
She's prudey and...
and misguided.
She wants us to get to know each other.
She wants me to keep getting to know myself.
She does not want me...
burying myself in you.
And if we start to have sex...
I'll bury myself in you.
Oh, now who's evil?
It's not gonna be too much longer.
You want me to quit therapy?
Hmm?
No!
Crap.
All right.
We have to go to O'Malley's funeral anyway.
No, I hate funerals.
Let's skip it.
Uh, we can, uh, push up Ceviche's debridemen that's good excuse.
Ceviche?
Chopped up fish.
Propeller accident.
Ceviche.
It's funny.
Right.
It's sick.
That's what makes it funny.
We are going to the funeral.
Come on. "
And then all these unicycle boys with wings carried us on a platform like we were Cleopatra or something.
Hilarious. "
I can't believe they went to burning man.
Hags.
They'd never even heard of burning man.
I hate them.
I hate them.
Clara...
forget them.
Okay?
They're morons.
They're just...
think about today.
Okay, the fact that today, you're gonna get what we believe is your final debridement, and then after that, we're gonna get the physical therapist in here to get your arm moving.
So I am gonna save this piece for you to do.
Thanks.
Now I'm gonna ask you one more time.
No.
Don't you want to call your mom...
No.
Before your next surgery?
No.
Not yet.
But we could write her another e-mail.
Will it make you late for your funeral?
No, no. "
Hi, mom.
I hope you're well.
Aside from the heat and the smell, burning man was amazing."
There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens...
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot the plant, a time to kill and a time to heal...
a time to tear down and a time to build...
Are you okay?
A time to weep...
You want the wheelchair?
And a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to cast away stones and a time to gather stones together, a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing.
I'm sorry.
You're laughing?
She'laughing.
George...
George is dead.
He's dead.
They're about to put him in the ground, and the priest is doing classic rock lyrics.
And that girl, that redhead is crying harder than his mother, and she never even met him.
It's just...
You are far more twisted than I ever realized.
And you got married on a post-it.
I got married on a post-it.
I did.
I did.
You know, you guys got married for real?
I know!
And I got cancer.
What?
Dude, O...
O'Malley got hit by a bus.
Oh, my God.
She never stops crying.
Not now.
Please not now.
It's been a week.
You've been avoiding me.
Not now.
I am buying you time, you know?
I am buying you time.
You have no idea what I've given.
You have no idea what I have sacrificed.
For every miscalculation you think you see, there have been a hundred things that I have gotten right, and no one knows.
Look, I'm on your side, okay?
I'm...
I'm not the board.
I'm not Jennings.
Well, then back off, then.
Just back off and...
you give me time to think.
Let me have a minute to...
O'Malley was my intern.
And I am trying to just take a minute.
So, Derek, please...
back off.
You want a ride home?
I'm just gonna clean out his locker, give his stuff to his mom, but...
I was a bad friend to George.
I was about as good a friend to him as Clara's friends, who keep sending postcards from the trip that she'll never get to take.
I just...
I...
I abandoned him completely.
I...
I...
I just...
moved out and...
and stopped talking to him and...
why?
Because...
because he didn't think it was as hot as I thought he was or be...
because he...
he didn't...
he didn't love me back?
This...
may be bad timing, but I gotta ask.
What did that guy have?
I mean, he wasn't much to look at.
But you and Stevens and Torres?
Tell the truth.
Was he...
you know...
hung?
That's...
I know.
I said bad timing.
I...
but seriously, he was kind of a dorky little dude.
Stop.
Stop talking.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
He...
he died.
I...
George died.
Yeah.
Okay, any pain here?
Now take a deep breath.
Any dizziness when you stood up?
Take a deep breath.
No.
Okay.
You are going home.
You are gonna come back in 12 days for another round of I.
L.-2, and then you have your pet-scan two weeks after that.
But there's no need for you to keep living in this bed.
You should take it easy.
You're still a cancer patient, but you're no longer a surgical patient.
Thank you, Dr.
Bailey.
I don't know how to...
thank you.
Uh, don't forget to sign the discharge papers before you leave.
Andy?
He's got serious pain in his inguinal area and down his legs and in his lower back.
He's got a temp of 101, and his mom says he's been throwing up all night.
Please don't tell me this is growing pains, Dr.
Robbins.
I can't do it.
It's okay.
I can't move it at all.
It's only been three days since your last surgery.
The swelling will come down.
Take a deep breath.
You're doing great.
Right.
Great.
So...
where did we leave off, at the Grand Canyon?
Yeah.
Big, gorgeous hole in the ground.
Okay, uh, miss you, mum.
uh, wish you could see it.
Clara, sorry.
Um...
you are doing great, but you got a long road here.
And believe me, your mom, she's gonna want to know.
And she's gonna want to help.
She made me from scratch.
That's what she always says.
Like...
when I wanted to go skydiving, you know? "
Don't jump out of a plane, Clara.
I made that body from scratch."
Or when I sprained my ankle... "
Be more careful, darling.
I made that ankle from scratch."
"Miss you, mum.
I'm doing great.
Love you.
Clara."
Come in.
Oh, Dr.
Torres.
Chief, I was just, um...
I was just wondering.
I, um, haven't heard anything about my application for attending, so...
Well, Dr.
Torres, Dr.
Chang's 401k took a hit, and he's putting off retirement for another year or two.
So...
so wait.
You're not giving me the job?
There is no job, not this year.
I'm sorry.
I assumed you'd heard.
Okay, um, Dr.
Chang is basically a figurehead.
You're clear on that, right?
When people want the best, they page me.
I have basically been running Dr.
Chang's department all year.
Dr.
Chang has an impeccable record.
He is a dinosaur!
And so am I!
You're...
this is c...
you're gonna regret this.
Dr.
Torres...
No, no, no.
I am just...
no.
I am excellent.
I am excellent, and any other hospital would be thrilled to have me.
I'm flattered for the offer, Larry, and I'm seriously considering it but it's...
it's complicated, and I need a little more time.
I can't give you more time, Derek.
I can give you more money, better benefits and a whole lot of press...
that's what I can give you.
But I can't give you much more time.
Yes, I am.
I'm a superstar...
a superstar with a scalpel.
Torres...
No!
Don't say my name.
Do not.
I am too big a star for you to say my name.
I build arms out of nothing, and legs, like God.
And when I win the Harper Avery and every other prize there is, you will rue this day, Chief Webber.
That's right.
I said "rue."
Tight ship you're running here, Webber.
Al tight ship.
Amanda.
What are you doing here?
Uh, I...
can't sleep.
I can't...
fall asleep 'cause I see his face all the time.
I see him at the bus stop...
you know, sweet, smiling, and then...
and then I see the way that he ended up, so that even his best friends can't recognize him, and I can't sleep.
Can you...
can you sleep?
I, um...
am gonna write you a prescription for an anti-anxiety medication.
And I want you to take it, because this sleep deprivation thing can be quite harmful.
Dr.
Robbins.
Chief.
Did you order an emergent 3-d M.R.I.
for this patient?
Okay, you're mad.
I see that.
But with the patient's mother's insurance, it could take weeks to get an M.R.I.
and a specialty pain referral...
So you expect the hospital to pay for this with whose money?
Oh, well, sir, I only thought that...
I don't want to hear it, Fr.
Robbins.
Now discharge your patient, refer him back to his physician, and do it now.
Dr.
Karev, change of plans.
Open up!
Open the door, Torres.
Open the door or I'll keep knocking and potentially damage my multimillion-dollar hands.
My ex-husband died.
He died.
He actually got hit by a bus.
George got hit by a bus.
And now...
now I have to get a new job, and...
and I'm never gonna see my friends anymore.
And Arizona keeps bringing me doughnuts.
We'll set up the scaffolding here.
This place for sale?
It's nice.
What?
Oh, nothing, nothing.
Oh, my God!
Derek!
Dude, get a room.
On the stairs?
Doesn't that hurt?
Leave us alone.
We're newlyweds!
A post-it wedding does not make you newlyweds.
You know what?
You're newlyweds, too.
You need your own space.
Hey, dude, what are these?
The keys to my trailer...
your new home.
Enjoy.
Dr.
Hunt?
Yes.
I'm Louise O'Malley.
George's mother.
Of course, of course.
I'm sorry.
I...
I didn't...
I'm sorry.
It's all right.
I'm...
I...
well, I hope you don't, uh, mh, mind me coming here to see you.
I know you surgeons are...
are very busy people.
My Georgie was always saying...
It's no problem.
It's fine.
I'm...
having trouble.
I'm having trouble...
I...
and I...
I...
I think it's because I...
I'm having trouble understanding.
Uh, there's a piece of the puzzle missing.
I...
I do better when I understand things, how things happen.
And George...
my George...
the boy I knew, the boy I raised, my boy would never have joined the army.
So I'm trying to understand.
I'm trying to understand that piece of it.
I...
I'm trying to understand why Georgie wasn't at work that day, why he was on his way to my house to tell me he'd joined the army in wartime.
I don't understand.
And Dr.
Webber said I should talk to you.
Mrs.
O'Malley, I didn't know him like you knew him.
I didn't know him long, but he had tremendous potential as a trauma surgeon.
He...
he was very fast on his feet, and he could think and act simultaneously under intense pressure.
He had tremendous potential.
And...
you know, he was impatient.
He wanted to become better faster.
He wanted to save more lives.
He was good.
And he was thoughtful and generous.
And I think in the end, I think...
I think he was heroic and noble.
And I liked him very much.
And I think he gave you good reason to be very, very proud.
I'm, uh, headed out.
I just wanted to say goodnight.
Night.
Clara, you just moved...
you moved your fingers.
Like...
like you waved.
You waved goodbye.
This is huge.
That's huge?
That I waved?
That I waved a finger?
That's...
that's my life from now on?
That's the best I have to hope for?
Clara...
do you see that woman out there talking to Dr.
Hunt?
We...
we buried her son this week.
He had an accident, like you.
He...
he wasn't even as bad off as you were, and he didn't make it.
Clara, I know that it doesn't feel like it, but it is a miracle that you lived.
It is a miracle.
So you should call your mom.
She would want to know the truth.
You stupid little bitch.
You really don't get i do you?
You shoulda let me die.
You had no business.
I've got one working hand.
I may never walk again.
Do you think you're god?
You had no business.
Your friend is better off.
His mum is better off.
Do you think this is a miracle?
Who wants to live like this?
Just let me die.
Just let me die!
Please just let me die.
Clara, Clara, you need to stop.
Clara, you need...
Just let me die!
Get off.
Clara...
I need some help in here!
Let me die.
Let me die.
Stop.
Clara, stop.
You have to stop moving.
In medical school, we have a hundred classes that teach us how to fight off death...
and not one lesson in how to go on living.
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Sharp sorrow.
Painful regret.
As surgeons, as scientists, we're taught to learn from and rely on books, on definitions, on definitives.
But in life...
strict definitions rarely apply.
In life...
grief can look like a lot of things that bear little resemblance to sharp sorrow. "
You're not missing much.
New York smells like pee."
God, I hate them.
More pain?
Your C.T.
results should be back soon.
I'm fine.
You should go home tonight.
You can call off the 24-hour suicide watch, you know?
Honestly, I'm better now.
I am.
Do you know what I think?
I think you're using me to avoid moving in with your boyfriend.
am not.
I'll make you a deal...
you move in with your boyfriend, and I'll let you call my mum.
Oh, mean.
Chicken.
Okay, uh, Clara, the C.T.
shows you have an infection in your small bowel and your colon is inflamed.
It's most likely something you picked up in the water.
But it seems to have formed an abscess, which means you need surgery right away.
No.
Uh, if we don't go...
No.
No more surgery.
I'm not being cut open again.
Okay, uh...
No.
You just take a minute.
Take a few minutes.
And I'll come back, and we'll discuss it.
um, start her on pre-op antibiotics and book an O.R.
What are the options?
Can you give me drugs?
Can you...
No, you need surgery, but it's a simple procedure.
And if it all goes as planned, you sh...
Well, my boat ride didn't exactly go as planned.
So tell me, worst case.
Well, uh, worst case is...
that we'd have to take out a part of your colon and give you a colostomy bag...
Colostomy bag?
A pooh bag outside your body?
My granddad had one of those.
It was...
No, but it...
it's a small, small possibility.
No.
No pooh bag.
No surgery.
No.
The infection will kill you, Clara...
No.
No more surgery.
We tried pain meds and treated him for pyelonephritis.
But it looks like it could be something more serious, so we did a C.M.G.
You did a C.M.G.
for a U.T.I.?
Why would you even look for something...
Because we were out of ideas.
The C.M.G.
was negative.
So we went back to a possible neurological cause.
So if we could get a better look, if you could give us permission to get a 3-d M.R.I.
, We could maybe, just possibly...
Chief, this kid's been in the E.R.
four times in the last three weeks because the pain meds aren't working.
Why can't we just...
sir?
$5, 000, Karev.
That's how much either you or Dr.
Robbins would have to put up to cover that scan.
Otherwise, you could come with me to my board meeting this afternoon and explain why you're running this hospital like it's a charity.
Dude, are you crying?
I have authority issues.
Walk away, Karev.
Where do you get off killing my patients, Yang?
Killing your...
When you take it upon yourself to talk that girl out of a lifesaving surgery, you're killing her.
I didn't talk her...
she had questions about the surgery.
You left the room.
No, I left the room to give a very fragile, very distraught patient time and space to accept what's being asked of her.
Then and only then would I have discussed the possible risks with, I'm certain, more tact and sensitivity than you have ever displayed in all the time that I've known you.
She asked...
No.
I don't care what she asked you.
And if she asks you anything else, your only answer will be, "let me ask my attending.
These are good.
Do they sell these in the cafeteria?
No.
No, those are the cancer pops.
Why do cancer people get all the fun?
How do you feel, Iz?
I'm not looking forward to the hurling that's about to happen, but I feel okay.
I feel good.
Bailey's on some sort of rampage.
I think it's post-O'Malley stress disorder.
She's not dealing with her grief.
You sound like Owen's shrink.
Owen's shrink...
is withholding sex, so she is grumpy and inappropriate.
Is Derek doing that, too, withholding sex?
Why would Derek withhold sex?
Alex is withholding...
everything.
It's like he's afraid, but I don't know what he's afraid of.
He's afraid of the cancer sex.
Cristina!
He doesn't want to end up with a cancer pop.
Cristina!
Just shut the hell up.
I'm not contagious, Cristina.
I know that.
I would totally have sex with you.
Really?
Nothing?
You don't even want a drawer?
No.
How about a toothbrush, change of panties?
No.
Damn.
I like your panties.
I am trying to focus.
I'm...
I'm becoming a resident today.
I need to focus.
I'm right across the street from the hospital.
If you crash here sometimes, you'll get a jump on a lot of surgeries.
Okay, okay.
Which one?
It's my first day at Mercy West, and I want to look nice.
You know, serious, talented, hard-core, not someone you push around.
Nice but hot...
like me.
That one.
Really?
I thought this one.
Too hot.
Better for a date.
That one.
Okay.
Here.
Can you...
thanks.
Okay.
Okay.
Less hot?
Less hot.
Okay.
Okay, okay.
Good.
Thanks.
Wish me luck.
Or not luck, 'cause I'm all talented and hard-core.
You're an attending, Torres.
Go kick some ass.
so, um...
Did you forget to mention that your hot, hard -core ex-sex-friend lives right across the hall?
Did I?
Yeah, you did.
And it is only under my tenure as chief that Seattle Grace has grown into one of the most renowned, lauded and sought-after surgical centers in the country.
Replacing me...
no.
Disrupting that process would be an epic mistake.
It is for that reason that I stand before you today and say with the utmost confidence that there is no one who understands and cares more about Seattle Grace than...
than me.
Look, this is ridiculous.
I'm fine.
It's a sprained ankle, and...
and I have a meeting I have to get to.
Look, I said I'm fine.
Chief?
Torres.
Thank God.
You were in a car accident?
Oh, it was minor.
I ran a red light.
I was distracted.
I am fine.
Can we make this quick?
I have a meeting with the board.
Okay.
Let's see.
Ooh, I don't know, sir.
This lac looks pretty deep.
You'll definitely need stitches.
And the ankle...
oh, yikes.
Yeah.
You could need surgery.
It's...
it's a sprain, Torres.
You two know each other?
Dr.
Webber and I go way back, huh we worked together for, what was it, five, six years?
You know, I hate to say it, but you're gonna have to have that lac repaired.
And this being a teaching hospital, not to mention Dr.
Mckee's first day, I have to let him work you up.
So you know how to do sutures, right, Dr.
Mckee?
Damn straight.
Great.
Good seeing you, chief.
Look, doc...
d...
She's, uh, she's just kidding about this being my first day.
It's, uh, it's my eighth.
What kind of sutures are you using?
Uh, 3-0 nylon?
No, no, no.
Use dermabond.
It takes less time and it heals quicker.
Yeah, I know, but, like, budget cuts, you know?
You like working in this place, doctor, um, McKee?
I mean, you think it's a strong program?
Yeah, it rocks.
Like, day eight, and I'm doing unsupervised procedures?
Not too shabby.
Not too shabby.
Uh, he trained at Northwestern and then at Harvard.
Uh, he grew up like five miles away from here.
Um, not rich, not poor.
Comfortable and well-loved by his parents, but, um, uh, itching to do something more with his life, which is when he enlisted, at the age of...
Cristina, this is not a book report.
I'm trying to explain to Dr.
Wyatt that I know things about you.
Cristina...
Wait, wait, wait.
He knows things about me, too, if that's what you're gonna say, 'cause we talk.
I mean, we talk all the time.
Honey? "
Honey"?
Cristina, let me be clear.
It's not just that I want the two of you to get to know each other, it's that I want Owen to feel comfortable with you.
Oh, he is comfortable with me.
It's fine.
You can talk to her.
It's fine.
Okay.
Cristina, um, he talks to you, he's comfortable with you.
Does he talk to you about his trauma?
Does Owen talk to you about the war?
Does he talk to you about the incident between you two...
the choking?
Owen's post-traumatic stress is fed...
by his avoidance of talking about anything in the war.
In order to improve, to heal, he's going to have to start talking about it, to you and to me.
And my concern is, if you get lost in the lust of it all, he won't have to make a start.
He won't have any reason to.
He'll feel that he has everything he needs until he doesn't.
So...
I'm asking you to wait.
Finished.
Read it back to me. "
Hi, mom.
Please prepare yourself, because this is gonna be difficult to read.
I've been in an accident."